Life...as i see it!

Thursday, February 24, 2005

Lifes strange.
i mean u just cant predict whats gonna happen the very next minute, hell we dont even know what will happen in another blink of an eye.
Things have a way of tangling up and then knotting and then either we just leave them all knotted up or we pull at em till either they loosen or simply break away.
A friend of mine fell in love a another friend a few days ago, well atleast it seems so and he is already bunggled. Jealousy pangs, mood swings, straining friendships..Jeez!
Love's cruel! :-Hope i dont have to see another heartbreak...dont think id b able to handle it.!

The MIS department held a bake sale today which actually sucked big time...reminded me of the thriving bake sale we held sumtime back...and with that memory came sum more.
Didnt like it.
Not the bake sale and not the memories.

listening on 9:04 PM

Sunday, February 20, 2005

The feeling that ur thinking of me hits like a shard of glass out of the blue.
Its suddenly suffocating as i fight to hold back my tears and continue with wat i was doing.
Its kinda strange but i can tell when ur thinking or maybe missing me. Not telepathy but maybe what people used to say abt feelings travelling from one heart to another despite the distances is true.
Going thru sum old mails i felt like highlighting sumthings u said and sending them back to u but well...
i need to go on with my life but cant seem to and i hate u for that.

listening on 9:59 PM

Friday, February 18, 2005

Its awesome feeling numb when ur on anti-depressants.
Things just dont hurt u anymore...
..and when they start pricking again U can have one more.

WooooooHooooooooooo im beginning to luv these things!!!

listening on 9:39 PM

Tuesday, February 15, 2005

Movies are so dillusional, they make reality hazy, like seeing life through rose tinted glasses. So there we are sighing at those chivalrous facades, getting dreamy-eyed while swaying to the lyrics and then mixing up the actors with our ownself.
the dancing around the trees doesn't look too corny then either!

But its not just the movies, even those innocent Grimm brither fairytales we were made to read as kids played a major part in making all those pretty colourfull baubles become precious jewels, tiny rooms got tranforming into celestial palaces, and the scariest dragons got slayed by knights in shining armour, our very own prince charming.
With time, that imaginery prince charming plants itself firmly into our minds but when we need them to slay the dragon we realize how skillfully we were entranced by magical words, pictures, images and movies...and most of all we face the dream shattering truth that actually, that prince does not exist.

We r silly...arent we?!

listening on 11:03 PM

Sunday, February 13, 2005

Its Valentines day again and im swinging in between hating it and then anticipating it.
Last year, you forgot to wish me and i threw a tantrum...This year i cant even complain.
Its so ironic when your worst nightmares actually start coming true and then u realize that well...things had to be this way.
Despite of knowing and accepting it as it comes, there is still a slight glimmer of hope, a tiny flare of anticipation that maybe...just maybe You wish me this year too.

Happy Valentines Day To You!

listening on 11:45 PM


Tell you a story of a love I left behind
It was a broken fairy taleI gave up all my pride
Let love inside
But tore me all apart when you played with my heart
Let me paint a picture of a cold and rainy night
As the candles fade to blackI played our favourite song'
Til the needle was gone
I've taken all I can
You've played your last hand

Black roses and a bottle of wine
Those were the only things that I left behind
Keep searching 'cause it's so hard to find
All you got are tears that you cry
Black roses and wine

Oh yeah
Sorry situation when your' castles made of sand
And it washes out to seaI pushed your love aside
Cried my last cry
My sould is in bloom
Like flowers in June

Black roses and a bottle of wine
Those were the only things that I left behind
Keep searching 'cause it's so hard to find
All you got are tears that you cry
Black roses and wineBlack roses and a bottle of wine
Those were the only things that I left behind
Keep searching 'cause it's so hard to find
All you got are tears that you cry
Black roses and wine

You don't miss your water 'til your well runs dry
You don't miss your good thing, 'til it passes you by
Like a bird in the sky, spread your wings and fly

Oh yeahYeah yeah yeah
Black roses and a bottle of wine
Those were the only things that I left behind
C'mon keep searching 'cause it's so hard to findA
ll you got are tears that you cry
Black roses and wine


listening on 2:18 PM


IBA

listening on 12:54 AM


Mood: Suicidal

The excruciating pain kept on intensifying, while tears poured from my diliated and clouded eyes.Another wave of flaming pain rose within...i pressed my temples in an unsuccesfull attempt to block it out. My pulse had a rythm of its own...rapid and then testy.Another wave of pain rushed from my head to the rest of my body, an agonizing sound rose from inside me but died at my parched lips.Slowly, like millions of freezing bug scrawling up my legs and spine numbing it. I frantically tried to rub my body to bring back some warmth but froze when it caused another wave of blinding pain in the back of my head.i quit trying and let my tears flow down the sides of my eyes and drenched the pillow.My life played like a flashback in my mind, my family, friends, college life, my beloved, and then it stopped at the most beautifull vision of my life."Mom" a soft whisper and a sigh...my pain eased, my senses healed, i felt as light as a cloud rising higher andhiger towards a bright white light.I looked back at my mortal abode resting with a soft smile and dried tears. Smiling back at it i proceeded with my journey above and left my beloveds crying below.

listening on 12:27 AM


Dont really believe in these things but well wats the harm in trying..though what it said about me does fit the slot.

http://www.usd.edu/trio/tut/pers/

and i ammmm
Romantic
Dreamy
Emotional
You are a very sensitive person. You refuse to view things only from a sober, rational standpoint. What your feelings tell you is just as important to you. In fact, you feel it is important to have dreams in life, too.
You reject people who scorn romanticism and are guided only by rationality. You refuse to let anything confine the rich variety of your moods and emotions

well...

listening on 12:27 AM